看了你的回复，觉得很开心温暖
记得你说过，你是个浪子，野心大，让人没安全感没什么好
但在紧要时刻你却可以让出个肩膀让周围的人靠
默默地觉得你确实做到了
虽然不在身边
在我最脆弱最需要帮助的时候
心里知道我一定可以找你
你总有办法让我开朗面对生活
在我心中，你是那个无法被定义的人
就是如此地特别
相信，明天会更好
谢谢你
Friday, November 18, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
It's been so long
想安静地看一本novel
想专心地下一盘棋
想疯狂地弹吉它高歌一曲
想要和朋友们多些待在一起，聊聊天，八八卦
现在手上的书除了课本，也只有readings
现在下棋的好友只有自己
现在弹吉它前要考虑是否会打扰别人
现在想见到的人都很忙，自己也忙，很难好好坐下互相了解，好好地分享内心世界和想法
踏入大学生活难道就意味每天都忙，每天做一些其实自己不太想做的事情么
学长告诉我，是的
承认自己懒、承认自己不成熟、承认自己太珍惜之前拥有的自由，无法被其他约束的生活
长大就意味着不能随兴所欲了吗
如果是这样，我不愿长大
上大学，不想只为了好工作
不想只为了得到好成绩
不想只为了名誉、光荣
不想只为了上大学而上大学
我要在这里找到自己
I need my motivation back
想专心地下一盘棋
想疯狂地弹吉它高歌一曲
想要和朋友们多些待在一起，聊聊天，八八卦
现在手上的书除了课本，也只有readings
现在下棋的好友只有自己
现在弹吉它前要考虑是否会打扰别人
现在想见到的人都很忙，自己也忙，很难好好坐下互相了解，好好地分享内心世界和想法
踏入大学生活难道就意味每天都忙，每天做一些其实自己不太想做的事情么
学长告诉我，是的
承认自己懒、承认自己不成熟、承认自己太珍惜之前拥有的自由，无法被其他约束的生活
长大就意味着不能随兴所欲了吗
如果是这样，我不愿长大
上大学，不想只为了好工作
不想只为了得到好成绩
不想只为了名誉、光荣
不想只为了上大学而上大学
我要在这里找到自己
I need my motivation back
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
While searching
Yesterday I was going to meet my mum at her motel with the address of Nathan Road, Kowloon. So I thought, Kowloon? Obviously I should get off the MTR at Kowloon, of course.
After 45 minutes of bus + MTR ride, I finally reached the Kowloon MTR station. From there, I tried to ask for directions and ended up queuing for a taxi for another 30 minutes. Finally I got on a taxi and gave the address to the taxi driver. 15 minutes went by...
I got off somewhere nearby the motel, paid HKD30 to the driver, and my brain was only thinking, yay, finally I get to see my mum!!
Then as I walked towards my destination, something about the surroundings struck me as familiar... Looked closely, what the heck. -.-" It's the Mongkok area which I am very very VERY familiar with.
Pretty amusing and frustrating experience, looking back at the stupid things I do.
After 45 minutes of bus + MTR ride, I finally reached the Kowloon MTR station. From there, I tried to ask for directions and ended up queuing for a taxi for another 30 minutes. Finally I got on a taxi and gave the address to the taxi driver. 15 minutes went by...
I got off somewhere nearby the motel, paid HKD30 to the driver, and my brain was only thinking, yay, finally I get to see my mum!!
Then as I walked towards my destination, something about the surroundings struck me as familiar... Looked closely, what the heck. -.-" It's the Mongkok area which I am very very VERY familiar with.
Pretty amusing and frustrating experience, looking back at the stupid things I do.
Monday, November 14, 2011
In Hong Kong
Jerwei, it's cause of you that I remembered about this blog. Totally forgotten about having one :p
Looking back at all of my past blogs, it's just so funny. Had I been ever that young? Seems as if those experiences were decades back. What happened to my high school life? Flew by in blink of an eye.
Now I'm in Hong Kong, a university student, new life, new faces, new experiences, and 2 months flew by once more.
But there is a huge difference between high school and university. Back then, I had goals on what I want to do, what I want to achieve. Here? So lost. Everyday I'm so busy and tired, but whatever for? To prepare myself for working in the society? That's just so lame. I've always thought that in university we were supposed to know what the heck we're working for but now it's worse. At least for me.
Why do I need to give myself additional pressure from assignments and deadlines? Why in the world did I even take up Statistics, to make myself sad and cry after every single lesson? Why can't I answer my friend who asked me what is the point of debate? Why is it that I'm so scared to try liking a person properly, when my closest friend here did it although the probability of the situation going wrong is so huge? Why am I even sitting in this stupid Politics class, when I'm not learning a single thing from the lecture??
So many questions surrounding me everyday but not much time to just sit and think. When will I know the answers to all of my thoughts, in this university, in this Asian education system, in this period of time now when I'm feeling so lost.
Miss the times when there were people beside me who were willing to lend a shoulder for crying on, at whatever time, whatever place, as long as I needed it. I thought I was independent enough, but apparently I'm not.
Looking back at all of my past blogs, it's just so funny. Had I been ever that young? Seems as if those experiences were decades back. What happened to my high school life? Flew by in blink of an eye.
Now I'm in Hong Kong, a university student, new life, new faces, new experiences, and 2 months flew by once more.
But there is a huge difference between high school and university. Back then, I had goals on what I want to do, what I want to achieve. Here? So lost. Everyday I'm so busy and tired, but whatever for? To prepare myself for working in the society? That's just so lame. I've always thought that in university we were supposed to know what the heck we're working for but now it's worse. At least for me.
Why do I need to give myself additional pressure from assignments and deadlines? Why in the world did I even take up Statistics, to make myself sad and cry after every single lesson? Why can't I answer my friend who asked me what is the point of debate? Why is it that I'm so scared to try liking a person properly, when my closest friend here did it although the probability of the situation going wrong is so huge? Why am I even sitting in this stupid Politics class, when I'm not learning a single thing from the lecture??
So many questions surrounding me everyday but not much time to just sit and think. When will I know the answers to all of my thoughts, in this university, in this Asian education system, in this period of time now when I'm feeling so lost.
Miss the times when there were people beside me who were willing to lend a shoulder for crying on, at whatever time, whatever place, as long as I needed it. I thought I was independent enough, but apparently I'm not.
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