In Hong Kong

Jerwei, it's cause of you that I remembered about this blog. Totally forgotten about having one :p

Looking back at all of my past blogs, it's just so funny. Had I been ever that young? Seems as if those experiences were decades back. What happened to my high school life? Flew by in blink of an eye.

Now I'm in Hong Kong, a university student, new life, new faces, new experiences, and 2 months flew by once more.

But there is a huge difference between high school and university. Back then, I had goals on what I want to do, what I want to achieve. Here? So lost. Everyday I'm so busy and tired, but whatever for? To prepare myself for working in the society? That's just so lame. I've always thought that in university we were supposed to know what the heck we're working for but now it's worse. At least for me.

Why do I need to give myself additional pressure from assignments and deadlines? Why in the world did I even take up Statistics, to make myself sad and cry after every single lesson? Why can't I answer my friend who asked me what is the point of debate? Why is it that I'm so scared to try liking a person properly, when my closest friend here did it although the probability of the situation going wrong is so huge? Why am I even sitting in this stupid Politics class, when I'm not learning a single thing from the lecture??

So many questions surrounding me everyday but not much time to just sit and think. When will I know the answers to all of my thoughts, in this university, in this Asian education system, in this period of time now when I'm feeling so lost.

Miss the times when there were people beside me who were willing to lend a shoulder for crying on, at whatever time, whatever place, as long as I needed it. I thought I was independent enough, but apparently I'm not.